DC - Here I come

A very close friend of mine once defined Love to be a "mental addiction". What a perfect statement, I thought. More recently, however, I've realized that so are many other kinds of relationships. It's weird that I miss someone so much, knowing very well that it's going to be less than a week when we're going to be back together. It's weird that I feel heavy at heart at the very thought of leaving Minneapolis and my people, even though Iam completely aware of the fact that a fantabulous weekend awaits me.WEIRD.

Talking about the futility of life

Just read aanu's blog on the 'Futility of Life" ! Been pondering over it for quite sometime now. The more I think about it, the more futile it seems. Sometimes, I wonder why I do the things that I do. Not that I attain any sort of enlightenment at the end of my never-ending thought process. Sometimes Iam amazed at how a zillion thoughts pass my mind in less than a nanosecond. What a waste of time and energy ! I wish I exhibited such high energy levels @ work. I've realized that the dissipation of mental energy can be quite exhausting. How much can the poor mind think ? In less than 7 days, it had to pass through terrible emotions of the fear of loss, of fear of seperation, of fear of not being able to keeping up expectations, of fear of hurting someone, of fear of the unknown... And then suddenly- Nothing matters . Questions like - Who am I doing all this for ? Dear ones? The ones that really matter to me. Where are they ? Do they even realize that they're dear to me ? Will I ever get an oppurtunity to let them know that they are the reason that Iam doing what Iam doing now ? Only time shall tell...

Nice and Crisp !

She's brilliant - Take some time out to read her posts...
http://jikku.blogspot.com/

An ode to my minneapolis family..

I've finally lost the post of being officially "vetti" . Two days into Medtronic and I already feel sleepy by 9.00 pm. The orientation reminded me of good ol' days @ Cognizant. I should say we indians are as sophisticated and suave and professional about everything from welcoming new employees to organizing the entire programme. I felt as comfortable as I did back home- which was pretty surprising, considering the fact that I was probably the only desi-TAMBRAM around. After 8 hours of information-overload, I was yearning to get back home and flaunt all those "kutti" gifts- the Medtronic T-shirt, the bag , the ID card.. It's amazing how comfortable I feel taking all these not-so-silly liberties with my friends here. It's amazing how nice it feels seeing them all sitting together and welcoming me with warm hugs and genuine interest. It's beyond doubt that appa/amma's affection is unsurpassable - but i couldnt ask for more - sitting 1000s of miles away. It feels wonderful when harish and anand slap me when I repeatedly fail to have my Iron tablets. However, irritating it might be at that point of time, it feels good when Niru corrects me and knocks some sense into my head when I lose it. Its absolutely wonderful when Abhi lightens things up when Iam down and cooks awesome food even if its at 11 pm !! Its amazing how neels puts up with me all the time and never retaliates. It feels weird without arzoooon and his non-stop teasing - and man ! Do I really wish today were the 21st of august !
Lastly, ( but most certainly not the least) it feels great to receive a good night hug and special kissies from your roommate every night :) . Iam running out of compliments here. But the truth is - I have actually stopped missing family- thanks to a bunch of caring souls. I've thanked HIM on numerous occasions for the fantabulous friends that I've always been bestowed with in life. I always wish I could have shank,senthil,raz,cheeru,rt,japes and the rest of the loosu pattanis around and I cant wait to get back and meet them in December. Nevertheless, my home right now is minneapolis and this is my family...

CRIB LIST- in decreasing order

Second attempt at Arden Hills - Failure. Period. ( I either need more luck or more awareness or perhaps both ! )
Got to work on ANGER MANAGEMENT.
Wish I could do something about my mood swings.
I have to work on being more firm in life and stop being a sucker!!!
I've been wanting to make "kadlakai pooshnikai koottu" for eons. Hasnt happened.

I have also been wanting to write nice things on orkut. Like the white water rafting experience, the trekking, the canoeing, the shopping...
Funny how one small failure can mess it up all for you.