Talking about the futility of life

Just read aanu's blog on the 'Futility of Life" ! Been pondering over it for quite sometime now. The more I think about it, the more futile it seems. Sometimes, I wonder why I do the things that I do. Not that I attain any sort of enlightenment at the end of my never-ending thought process. Sometimes Iam amazed at how a zillion thoughts pass my mind in less than a nanosecond. What a waste of time and energy ! I wish I exhibited such high energy levels @ work. I've realized that the dissipation of mental energy can be quite exhausting. How much can the poor mind think ? In less than 7 days, it had to pass through terrible emotions of the fear of loss, of fear of seperation, of fear of not being able to keeping up expectations, of fear of hurting someone, of fear of the unknown... And then suddenly- Nothing matters . Questions like - Who am I doing all this for ? Dear ones? The ones that really matter to me. Where are they ? Do they even realize that they're dear to me ? Will I ever get an oppurtunity to let them know that they are the reason that Iam doing what Iam doing now ? Only time shall tell...