Birthday Fever

I wonder if other's share similar thoughts - But in and around a week before that "special day of the year" ... I feel the "suckiest". Everything seems so terrible, unfair and miserable. Workload seems to be at its peak.( I used to have those god-forbidden semester exams back in college). Everyone seems to be busy - doing their own things - In fact it's weird how everyone is actually so busy doing their own things and your best buddies actually talk lesser than usual. ( Or is it that I tend to keep myself busy ? ) I think Iam paranoid. I've walked this planet for almost 2 dozen years now and I dont seem to understand this phenomenon. I sit now - all by myself - and think - Why have I felt this way every year ? Frankly I dont see any logic behind this creepy feeling except for the fact that, whatever said and done - Iam excited about THE day! Well, who cares if Iam getting older - I still like surprises, I still love it when people go " What does archu want for her bday ? , I feel emotionally satisfied when people make me feel special and wanted, I love it when I receive those overseas phone calls , the SMSs. Its absolutely thrilling when I see my inbox flooded with wishes from people I have'nt heard from in a long time. So why all this depression ? Pretension. Why ? Because Iam old and mature and Iam not supposed to be excited about little things such as this. Crap. I dont see why we should'nt do the " It's- my -Happy- Birthday- today - Where- are -my- presents ?" thingy.
Well that said and done, Diwali was dull. Classes, work work and more work, an interview and grocery shopping. Perfect! Nevertheless - Niru's vada chutney & paayasam made my day. Have'nt had such a satisfying meal in a long time. Cheers Niru ! Yaawn ! Time for some S.Ve Shekhar - Gnite folks!