Its been a tough semester. There's been more on my plate than I could possibly ever swallow. It has been absolutely stressful - mentally and physically..and I have been trying to keep my head above the water - desperately. I know grad life can dreadfully painful. To think of it, it's been worse than what it was last Fall- the only difference being I believe I am twice as much stronger(mentally) than I was when I first landed here to face this big bad mean mean world all by myself. Yet, sometimes I wonder if it is worth all this pain.
It kills me ...
When I dont get a good five hours of sleep..
When I come home famished and dont even find milk to make myself a cup of coffee...
When I cant involve myself in frivolous conversations...
When I think getting done with my NPDBD deliverable is better than listening to a relaxing song..
When people around me shun me just because I am doing what I am supposed to be doing ...
When I have to deal with folks whose mood swings are worse than mine !
All said and done, I've had worse phases .. and like any other phase- I am sure this will pass. A friend of mine once said " It's how you look at the world and its people - nothing around you has changed - it's just a matter of time before you get back to your old self..just hang in there". I am trying to you know..but its just taking an abnormally long period of time. I am glad I have someone at any point of time in life to knock some sense into my head. Touch wood ! (Read: Touch my head)
Here's to those few souls who stand by me, inspite of my eccentricities...
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ena maa kilo kilo-vaa sogam...
palla kadichiko...Chennai Anna International Airport beckons the Minnesota Maami :D
hang in there, kadlakai!
:) That sounds pretty familiar.. i've been there too, and trust me, those words are one of the greatest words of wisdom ever.. "This too will pass"..
Cheers.
ecentric ????
Adage "old age brings wisdom" :)
Well, this is why you need to go shopping groceries once in a while in between your grand shopping fiascos.
it will be ok archana, but take it from me, don't rely on your appa's words about work as hard as you can and leave teh results to god. as you know by now results matter, especially the GPA's and scores. so don't be like me and study and work but don't work for everything. work wisely. instead of reading the entire book for exam ( which might not be possible) read the things that you know will be on the exam.
and of course you are graduate student. you have lots of experience so you know all this. but i just want to say - may the force be with you.
Thanks ravali!
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